Loops In The Eternity and Itinerant Subconscious

Monday, June 27, 2011
He put on the music not so much to have something to listen to but so he couldn't hear his own head listening to him. Time passed or it didn't in it's own relative way. He was at once within and outside of himself. He reopened his book to the line he had left off on, 'Bad news coming, thought Winston' and started to read, but his mind drifted off.

He was taken away to a place nearly thirty years earlier. The day after he had left home. He had awakened on his girlfriends parents couch, only half aware of where he was. He lit a Winston and leaned back as the local FM radio purred The Rain Song somewhere in the background.

The memory was of such strength that he could smell the stale cigarettes and musty carpet. He could hear the slight patter of rain on fallen leaves on a Portland fall morning. He distinctly remembered asking himself, "What do I do now?".

Then he was back, book in hand, music still playing. His coffee had grown cold and written on the yellow legal pad next to him was this:
Insanity is what happens when the subconscious decides to not play by the rules.

Like Winston Smith reading the words 'DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER' written in his journal, he, also, did not recall writing those words. Those terrible, troubling words. Words that would certainly give others pause.

Perhaps, he thought, he should take a pill. Thirty years earlier he would have solved the problem by smoking a joint. Not knowing what else to do, he picked up the legal pad and began writing:
He put on the music not so much to have something to listen to but so he couldn't hear his own head listening to him.

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